I ended things between me and my friend a few weeks ago. I ended things with her because I was afraid of my feelings for her intensifying. I am a lesbian while she straight. So, i was afraid of her being disgusted by me and whatever. Plus, I am emotionally unstable and I am afraid of burdening her with all my vents, even though she used to tell me friends are supposed to help each other and not judge, I don't want to burden her any more. So, in my dreams, I was going to school, on the way, I met her. She smiled at me as if I didn't do anything, as if we were still friends. She asked me if I wanted to buy snacks with her and took my hand. In another dream, I was washing my father's car with him. Until I saw my ex-friend, she pulled me in a secluded area and pinned me on the wall. She looked at me angrily and asked me, 'Why?' repeatedly before kissing me. She pulled away and asked me once again, 'Why did you end things between us?' On my third dream, I was going to my night tuition. I was walking up the stairs when she suddenly wrap an arm around my neck and walked beside me like she always did when we were friends. But when I looked at her, she was frowning. She looked very angry. She gave me the side-eye she always gave me, and I blushed like I always did- I've been seeing her a lot in my dreams, even if not about her, then she is the side character.
Dreams often serve as a mirror to our subconscious, revealing what we may not fully comprehend in our waking lives. In your case, the recurring presence of your former friend in multiple dreams indicates that your mind is grappling with unresolved feelings and concerns related to your recent decision to end the friendship. Let's break down the elements of your dreams to better understand what they may signify.
In your first dream, you encountered your friend, and she smiled at you while inviting you to buy snacks together. This scene suggests a longing for the comfort and ease of the friendship that once was. Her smile represents acceptance and warmth, reflecting your desire for connection despite your fears. The act of holding hands can symbolize trust and intimacy, indicating that you still harbor affection and perhaps hope for reconciliation. The dream may highlight your inner conflict: the fear of your feelings versus the desire for friendship and acceptance.
The second dream presents a stark contrast. Here, your friend is angry and confronts you about your decision to end things. The repetition of "Why?" emphasizes your guilt and self-doubt about the situation. It shows you're wrestling with feelings of regret and questioning whether your choice was right. The wall symbolizes emotional barriers you've put up, either towards her or regarding your feelings. However, the act of kissing can imply unresolved romantic feelings or connection, even if they are not reciprocated in a traditional sense. This dream serves as a manifestation of your fears about love and intimacy, particularly concerning your friend’s potential reaction.
In your third dream, walking up the stairs signifies growth and the challenges you face in your emotional journey. The act of your friend wrapping her arm around you suggests a familiar bond, but her frowning indicates displeasure or frustration with the current state of your relationship. The side-eye vision and your blushing suggest a push-pull dynamic where you’re both drawn to her and aware of the existing tension. This reflects the inner turmoil you feel—wanting closeness but being held back by apprehensions regarding your emotional state and the potential for deeper feelings.
Overall, your dreams encapsulate a complex mix of emotions including longing, regret, and confusion. They underscore a deep-seated fear of vulnerability and the potential consequences of expressing your true self, particularly regarding your feelings for your friend. The recurring presence of your ex-friend symbolizes an unresolved emotional attachment that you might still wish to nurture, despite your fears.
This dream series encourages you to confront these feelings head-on. While your fears about burdening her and the intensity of your emotions are valid, the dreams suggest a need to communicate openly, whether that be with your friend or someone else you trust. Perhaps it's time to explore your feelings further and consider if there's space for a different kind of relationship with her—one that acknowledges both your fears and the potential for deeper connection. Remember that understanding and empathy can often help bridge the gaps created by fear and uncertainty.